Judd is off to kindergarten

I enrolled Judd into kindergarten today.  I have been putting it off thinking he is too young and not ready for such full on schooling, but after discussing my options with the headmistress we agreed that Judd can only attend 3 days a week instead of 5 and for his first week he will only do half days until he is settled.  So we signed him up, paid the tuition and Judd got his very first school bag with 2 sets of uniforms and a pair of pyjamas.  All of the Thais schools, have strict uniform policies and some have strict curriculum.  But after searching high and low I settled on this new little kinder just 1 km up the road from our house.  It is called Hastin and it only has 2 classes, of 20 kids each.  The younger kindergartner's and the older pre schoolers.  They are so cute as they run around in their little matching uniforms.  We get a pretty good deal for the price too, uniforms, bags and books are all included as well as all snacks and lunch every day, along with swimming lessons every Friday and also health insurance which we can even claim on if he injures himself at home.  How handy.  I think he will have better health insurance than Marcus and myself.  We had a try on session with his uniform when we got home, he looks like a little green and white sailor.  I also went out and bought him new school shoes as they are required to wear white leather runners.  I didn't mind as we realised yesterday that his old runners are now far too small.

So after seeing him all dressed up and looking all grown up I had a mixture of emotions.  Firstly I was so proud to see him in his uniform and his new shoes I had visions of what it will be like to take him to school everyday and kiss him goodbye.  I also felt nostalgic and sad that my little boy is no longer my baby.  Soon he will be making all new friends and as the years go by he will no longer be dependant on his mamma anymore.  I also felt anxious that I will have to leave him there with strange people in this strange country and trust that they will take good care of him. I am excited as well that soon I will be able to have our nanny take care of Lillie for a couple of hours a day while I take some time to do some personal activities or just to take a break.  I feel bad that I am using Judd's school commitments to suit my personal agenda, but don't all mums do that?  They use their time to either take a break or get their careers moving again or to raise the other children in their families. 

All in all I feel like I have taken a very positive step in settling into our new life here and my confidence is starting to return.