Pledge

Oh my its been ages. Whoops. Trying to get back into routine a bit, a couple of long weekends and I am all out of whack. I so want to start learning to meditate, but I struggle to find the time. I have finished work now so maybe instead of going to work for 3 hours I can find a class to take or something interesting like that. I have seen meditation classes advertised around, or maybe I will take up Yoga.
I have been so cranky lately, I snap very easily, I feel hormonal all the time and very moody. I think I am addicted to V energy drinks, I have at least one sometimes 2 bottles a day, then I have trouble sleeping at night, I even get tummy cramps from it. I dont drink coffee or tea so I justify it to myself that it is just like having 2 coffees a day. I lie to myself everyday about this. Every sunday I go to bed saying, tomorrow I quit, then tomorrow comes and I am back at the 7 Eleven buying their 2 for 1 deal. It works out quite expensive. I know I can stop because when I was pregnant with both of my kids I quit no probs because I had to, but this time it seems so much harder, I look forward to my drink, the kids are annoying me, I have too much housework to do and it brings me a little happiness for 10 mins. Isnt that sad? I should be getting happiness from my family and home and life, not from a stupid drink. God its pathetic.
I see these bogan women on the current affair programs about how they are addicted to Coke and Coke Zero, and I honestly feel repulsed by them, and in the same instant I am repulsed by myself.
I tell hubby not to let me have one, and he tries but I just fold and go get it anyway and he knows I will argue and sulk if he tries to tell me what to do.

I need to get stuck into my fitness again, I am going to give myself a goal to work towards. Not a weight goal, or a dress size but a fitness goal like a half marathon or bike ride or triathalon. If I can start a training program to build my fitness for an event then I will be more focused on that and the weight loss and health improvements will just be a positive side effect.
So thats it world, I am going to Google until I find myself an acheivable event and start training. And I hope that if I can kick this caffeine habit my temper will calm down and I wont be so moody.

I hereby pledge:

I, Allison Esmonde will choose a sporting event to train towards and compete in for the next 6 months. I will stop drinking energy drinks, stop eating chocolate and start a more healthy lifestyle. I will also use my time more effectively to take on a new class, either Yoga or Meditation.
I take this pledge in the interest of my health, both mental and physical and for the benefit of my family.
I will document my progress here on my blog, along with my other thoughts and ideas.
Signed
Allison Esmonde
03 May 2010

So lets see how this goes......?