My first day at Blogging

Where do I begin?


I started my day out today waking up cranky and feeling run over with a head cold. My 8 month old daughter had me up from 2am crying, refusing to go back to sleep.

In the end I had to give in and give her a bottle of milk, which I don't like doing as I feel it teaches her to use the bottle to re settle rather than learning on her own. Then to my frustration she still wouldn't settle longer than 15Min's. Arggghhhh!

It is hard to think rationally at 3am hoping to God that her crying wont wake my 2 and a half year old in the room opposite.
Thankfully he sleeps pretty deeply.
Then to top off my wonderful night my early riser of a son came in at 5.30am already up and dressed looking for his slippers. I couldn't handle this one, I elbowed hubby to take him back to bed.

So why today of all days to start my own Blog? Frustration, a need for an outlet, who knows.

Mostly I have decided that I am at a turning point. I am so bogged down in babies routines, creche, swim classes, cooking, cleaning, etc. etc. Than I have lost ME. Hubby would roll his eyes at this but I believe other mums out there with small children would sympathise.

I also began my 21 day consciousness cleanse by Betty Ford I found on the Oprah website. I spent 8 mins while my baby slept and my son watched a cartoon to meditate and begin my journey to find my innermost desires. ( as I type this my baby just bonked her head and is screaming and my son is eating lunch making a huge mess, dogs barking, I need a bigger outlet!) excuse me a moment............so obviously that didn't go so well, I will try again tomorrow morning. But I did get to figure out what I desire; To get healthy and lose this baby weight.

So my affirmation for today is : I am worthy of living my hearts desires!

My outer action: eat more fruit, lay off the chocolate left over from Easter and drink more water.

My inner action: control my temper and frustration, take deep breaths and stay calm.

So far I have had chocolate already, lost my temper twice and had no water at all. Doing well I would say. lol.

This will be my daily outlet to express my frustrations, joys, thoughts, beliefs, mistakes, dreams and goals. And hopefully it will make some sort of sense.

So I begin with my 21 day consciousness cleanse as my start to making my life feel not busier but fuller and start to learn to appreciate what I have in life.


But to be honest, today isn't going so well. But it's a start and I will persevere.