Home or abroad?

It is a funny feeling to be back in Melbourne.  I am not sure if I am living in Thailand and holidaying in Melbourne or if I am living in Melbourne but taking an extended holiday in Thailand.  At first I was so happy and relieved to be home, but after some time and some really cold mornings I find myself really looking forward to returning to Thailand and its hot and sweaty weather.  But knowing me I will complain no matter what country I am in.  I hate to be hot and sticky but I also hate the cold for trapping me and the kids inside so much.  Marcus is struggling with the cold weather as well but he is  enjoying being able to go cycling again and loves running along Beach road.  At first I was loving having all the lovely food to eat and going to good yummy bakeries but after 2 weeks of eating myself silly I am beginning to crave Thai food. 
I feel a little bit in between, one part of me wants to settle down somewhere permanent and set up house and set up the kids and have a fully stocked kitchen rather than what we have been doing for the past 8 months which is kind of making do with the basics and keeping things simple.  The other part of me wants to keep on taking full advantage of this opportunity and keep travelling and keep the holiday going.  All this indecision is tiring.  I know that if I chose to return to Melbourne prematurely that yes it would be exciting buying and setting up a new house BUT after some time the days will begin to roll together and before I know it it will all feel like groundhog day again and I would be just another "soccer mum" running about with her kids complaining about petrol prices etc.  Not that that is a bad thing but that is one of the major reasons we decided to hit the road and work overseas to gain some perspective on the world and how other people and other families live.  It is very easy to fall into your own immediate environment and lose sight of the bigger issues.  The news on TV is all the same (not that I expected much to change in only 8 months) but all they talk about is footballers and their tantrums, drunk celebrities and which shampoo and conditioner is the best or what creme works best on cellulite.  I think back to when I was a kid and I hated it when my parents would put the news on TV and refuse to let me change the channel.  I thought the news was so utterly boring and maybe it was back then which is now why it is more like a soap opera gossip channel than a serious broadcast on serious issues that affect not only Australia but the world.  I wonder if my kids will hate the news being on TV like I did or if they will sit down to watch Today Tonight or ACA just to catch up on their daily hit of gossip?
How does this all relate to how I am feeling about going back to Thailand?  Simple, being away from Australia and physically seeing how other nations live,work and play has opened my eyes and after being back for only a short time I can see that nothing has changed, everyone still rolls along within their own bubbles trying not to pop and I have had the amazing opportunity to pop my bubble and see that by going outside everything I knew to be safe and comfortable is scary but it is also exhilarating and I am not ready to get back inside that bubble just yet.