Baby Steps

Yesterday my little angel took her first little steps by herself! She isn't even 1 yet and she is trying to walk. I am not ready, I was hoping she would wait until we got to Thailand before she started making more work for me. Selfish I know, but we have so much packing to do and then the super long flight, I am really not ready. On a brighter note I am so proud of her, she is one determined little girl and stubborn too. She is much tougher than monster boy was when he was a baby, even now he sooks and the smallest bump or scratch and he is in tears. She however just ploughs through, falling over, bonking her head, jamming her fingers. She cries for a minute or more then is over it and onto the next toy to play with. I have all these visions of her being a strong willed and determined teenager, taking life by the horn and making the most of it.

All the things I wasn't as a child. I was painfully shy. I was one of the sheep that would follow the other girls and join in with them, rarely ever leading the pack. I regret some of that though as sometimes the following meant not saying anything if someone was being picked on at school. I hate bullies and I would like to say I never was one, but I did do something just as bad. I ignored it. None of my friends were bad bullies but the little stuff, the bitchy stuff that girls do to each other is worse I think. Girls and women for that matter can be down right awful to each other. I prefer the company of guys most of the time (aside from a handful of my girlfriends) but guys seem to not get so deep and emotional about things and just want to laugh and have good times. They tease each other, but they all know its in jest and its their way of showing they care. My husbands male friends are hilarious to listen to when they get together, I really enjoy just sitting quietly with a glass of wine and listening to them go on and on about all the stupid stuff they did when they were kids. Before the wives, kids and jobs forced them to grow up and take on mature responsibilities. My biggest wish is for Monster boy to have a group of friends to grow up with just like what his father had (but with less law breaking and stuff).

I wonder what this trip overseas will do to the kids and how it may change the way they look at the world. Will it make them more accepting of people? Will it begin a love of foreign countries and languages? I don't know, I just hope they enjoy it and make lots of new friends. Monster boy will start kindergarten over there, apparently they have language lessons straight away. If it turns out his education will be a better one in Thailand I would consider staying there longer. I don't have a problem with schools here, but I do have a problem with kids attitudes and bad behaviours. In Thailand they teach respect for elders from birth, in Australia you would be lucky to have a kid give up a seat on a bus for an older person.
There is a bad attitude spreading through our younger generations, a selfish and greedy one. Generations of spoiled brats and I am trying not to include our children in it.